Mandatory Duvet Day

Sometimes I just need to stop. I need to do nothing. Nooooothing. It’s hard to explain this to well-meaning family and friends. To most people, a relaxing chat over a cup of tea is “stopping”, but to me, that’s doing quite a lot. That’s something that I like to do on good days.

It’s hard to explain that I don’t need to relax the same way that they do after a long day. I need to just stop. I need to drop everything and spend a day alternating between the sofa and bed. I don’t shower. I don’t eat anything more complicated than a pot noodle. I make several cups of tea and completely forget about them. I am basically a high functioning zombie. If I don’t stop, then I just double the suffering that happens the next day. When I say that I feel awful, I don’t mean I’m a bit under the weather. I am ill every single day and most days, I manage to just get on with it. When I say I need to stop, it’s because I simply cannot carry on. I am buggered.

Sometimes I wake up and feel like I have a level 5 hang’ and some epic jet lag. Except, I’ve not been drinking the night before and haven’t even left my house if days, never mind the country. I call this an EDS hangover. This is when I hurt all over, am utterly exhausted, have loads of adrenaline pumping through my veins for no reason, feel that lingering nausea and spend all day feeling too hot one minute and freezing cold the next. In the past, I’ve thought that this EDS hangover was the start of some nasty muggle illness like the flu, but it isn’t. It’s just my body being an asshole.

I can only hope that tomorrow is better. Yay for hot water bottles and binge watching Black Mirror. I hope no one “pops round” because I’m not answering the door today.

Ren x

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4 thoughts on “Mandatory Duvet Day

  1. clairesaul says:

    Ren, I could not have put it better myself! Am sitting here with heat pad, hot bag and struggling to type cos EDS hands hurt so much. Started Black Mirror last week…….stay warm & cosy, sending you very gentle hugs, Cx

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  2. bowermanland says:

    EDS Hangover is the best way to describe it. I hate the palpitations I get. Recently I’ve just been eating bread and soft cheese and drinking tea. There are lots of costume dramas on Youtube you can binge as well. I tend to just watch Shrek over and over. Cos, you know, I’m nearly 40.

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  3. mynewpossibilitiesproject says:

    I call them my crash days- the day that I crash into the bed and my only work is showering and even then I don’t show up to work. Thank you for articulating your experience so beautifully- I hope that your duvet offers you comfort and you are surrounded with love and support.

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